Worthy? I think not.

Sometimes, when I don't feel as close to God as I have before or should be, I feel like I'm unworthy to receive blessings from Him. But, shouldn't that be true always? 

Why do I think that when I feel close to God, I deserve blessings? What a self righteous attitude. I don't deserve anything from Him. John 1:16 says "From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another." 

From the fullness of his grace.

I'm an unworthy sinner who receives gracious love, mercy, and salvation from an almighty Savior. This should be at the forefront of my thinking every single day. I breathe everyday, don't I? Is that not a blessing in and of itself? He's such a generous God, isn't He?

I thank God for this humbling experience that put things in perspective for me. Just another part of the learning process.

You know me too well, Shel.

Tryin' On Clothes

I tried on the farmer's hat,                                                   
Didn't fit...
A little too small -- just a bit

Too floppy.
Couldn't get used to it,
Took it off.

I tried on the dancer's shoes,                        

A little too loose.

Not the kind you could use

for walkin'.

Didn't feel right in 'em,

Kicked 'em off.

I tried on the summer sun,
Felt good.
Nice and warm -- knew it would.
Tried the grass beneath bare feet,
Felt neat.
Finally, finally felt well dressed,
Nature's clothes fit me best.

I found this and it made me smile and think of the summer and how I can't wait for it to come. That is all.

Oh and props to Shel Silverstein. 

The Weekend Getaway

Two days ago was Resurrection Sunday (praises). I can't even describe to you my love for my Savior and the gratefulness I have in my heart for what He did for all of us. I pray I'm reminded of it every day. 

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This weekend I stayed at the roommate's household once again. Always a joy. I've been blessed with such great friends this year, as always. God never ceases to amaze me with the people He puts in my life. Good times were had this weekend and, though it was short, my heart feels full and my fun-o-meter has reached new heights. I'm just so grateful for fun times, accepting chaps, and loving hearts. So glad I've been introduced to the 757 clan.

Perspective

Do you see the cup half full or half empty?

I've always avoided these answers and went with my own...

It depends on if it was full or empty in the first place.

However, now that I think about it, what does it matter if it's half full or half empty? What matters is that there's still room for it to be filled. So I say, fill 'er up!

...who wants a half [either] cup anyway?

::sigh::

So the big news today is that Michelle Obama touched the queen of England.

I was thinking that we should be focusing on the crashing economy and whatnot. Boy, do I have to get my priorities straight or what?

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Oh, you guys.

I've been fooled by one Feagan and one Smark. Oh, the festivities of April Fool's Day...

A learning process, that's all it is.

So, I went away this weekend with a ministry team called Youth Quest. I have to say, I had some preconceived notions about this team and, as usual with my condescending judgment, I was proved wrong. I say condescending because, honestly, who am I to judge anyone? Needless to say, they're a great group of people with hearts filled with love and a yearning to do more for Christ. I am privileged to have worked with such a group. 

I noticed a few things about myself and my walk with God as I worked with the kiddies this weekend. Through a series of events (not to be confused with the Lemony Snicket kind), I realized I hear what God is telling me to do, but I doubt it for a few minutes and let the moment pass. I then lose my chance to be in complete obedience. Obedience is supposed to be automatic. I should jump at what God has told me to do. Instead, I question if I really heard it from Him, or what other people would think if I did it, and by the time I decide I'm going to obey, the chance it gone. 

I realize I'm not being very specific about the situations but I don't really feel like going into detail. Sawwy. But just know that I'm always growing and learning and God hasn't given up on me yet. For that, I am eternally grateful to Him.

in the beginning...

Well hello. This is my first blog, people. Ever. So..don't judge so harshly yet. I'm currently sitting in Physics class and should be working on my Education homework. Or maybe paying attention. Hense the title of my blog. Avid.Procrastination. It's what I do. Sorry this first post is lame, but I'm sure I will have some pretty profound posts to hit you with in the time to come. Just wait for it.