A learning process, that's all it is.

So, I went away this weekend with a ministry team called Youth Quest. I have to say, I had some preconceived notions about this team and, as usual with my condescending judgment, I was proved wrong. I say condescending because, honestly, who am I to judge anyone? Needless to say, they're a great group of people with hearts filled with love and a yearning to do more for Christ. I am privileged to have worked with such a group. 

I noticed a few things about myself and my walk with God as I worked with the kiddies this weekend. Through a series of events (not to be confused with the Lemony Snicket kind), I realized I hear what God is telling me to do, but I doubt it for a few minutes and let the moment pass. I then lose my chance to be in complete obedience. Obedience is supposed to be automatic. I should jump at what God has told me to do. Instead, I question if I really heard it from Him, or what other people would think if I did it, and by the time I decide I'm going to obey, the chance it gone. 

I realize I'm not being very specific about the situations but I don't really feel like going into detail. Sawwy. But just know that I'm always growing and learning and God hasn't given up on me yet. For that, I am eternally grateful to Him.